Today, I decided to blog about the Broadway Boys concert experience instead of a Sunday Currently. But in case you are wondering, I am currently just lying on my bed as I compose this entry. Almost ready to hit the sheets.
Before anything else, I would like to thank those people who expressed their love and support for me yesterday during #MaineSingsWithBWBoys. This is not about the hashtag count; this is more than the numbers. (Pero syempre super appreciated yun! Effort yun ha! Nakakaloka yung 1.7 million. If only tweets are convertible to cash no?) I am expressing my gratitude to all those who showed appreciation to our performance. Thank you for watching Tita Karen Karpentera as she conquered the stage (kabuwisit yung conquer lol) with the Broadway Boys. To those who lined up in Broadway Centrum from 5 in the morning ; those who missed hours of sleep for the Twitter party (Is that what you call it?) ; those who came all the way to the studio on a rainy Saturday just to witness the concert live; those who watched from their TV monitors (Team Bahay) and phone/computer screens (Team Abroad). Salamat. O diba dami kong pinasalamatan daig pa kumandidato.
Yesterday, I was sooo happy when the show ended. As in I am super glad that nothing bad happened. Knowing myself, I always feel like I’d fail in the things I do. That no matter how hard I try to convince myself that everything’s going to be alright, I still cannot shrug off that bit of negativity in my system. Still, before the show started, I summoned my inner Rancho..
I was soooo nervous! And I will tell you why..
Let’s clear things up here first. Guys, you need to know.. I am not a drummer. Though drums have always fascinated me because there are hardly any female drummers out there. (And I wanted to be one!) Since we have a drum set at home– my brother plays drums– I thought why not try to learn how to use it. With the resources available these days, I thought of watching drum tutorials and covers on Youtube in the hopes of learning something. (I mean.. striking instruments with sticks seems kind of easy, right?) I was already fond of Coldplay and editing videos back then so I thought of doing something new…. then tadaaaa! I came up with ‘In My Place’ drum cover. Wala lang naman yun, sinubukan ko lang talaga. Uh duh, it was clearly all over the place. That video was made out of curiosity and spontaneity. Little did I know years later it would be used as a reference to attest that I can play drums. Hindi ba pwedeng sinubukan lang?!
Anyway, I always have hard time learning a piece because I am not a proficient “drummer”– you could clearly tell. (Kasi nga diba hindi naman talaga ako sanay!) So it all started Wednesday night, when I was told that I have to play drums for the Broadway Boys concert. Stressed ako ng mga oras na yun. I was thinking.. How could I learn drums and other percussions in just two days?! Sobrang nakakapressure because I did not have a choice. It’s not that I don’t want to do it; it’s just I don’t think I have enough time to learn and practice. So ayun na nga, I had to learn a “simple” drum piece. Pero wait let me tell you, a “simple” drum piece is not so simple and easy as it seems– speaking for my-not-a-drummer-self. Some were telling me “Madali lang yan, freestyle naman eh!” No, no, nope. Again, I am not a drummer.
To be completely honest, I don’t think I have a sense of rhythm when it comes to playing drums. I guess I do have a sense in faking it??? Basta! You don’t know how hard it is for me to learn a drum piece whenever I am asked to. (Lagi pang biglaan.) I don’t even know the basics. As in, zero knowledge. I know nothing about music notations. I don’t have the coordination to synchronise my 4 limbs– meaning the ability to keep a rhythm with both hands and feet simultaneously. I don’t even know the right way to hold the drumsticks. What do you expect from someone who didn’t have any formal lessons? Nada! YouTube videos and playing along to songs will only get you so far. So d’you get what I am saying? Napapasubo lang ako sa tuwing magddrums. Imagine my anxiety before performing. “Why do birds..” palang kahapon, drum solo na agad iniisip ko. That’s the reason why my hands were cold yesterday as mentioned by Ma’am Allan and Poleng. I had this feeling that I’d fail doing it. Kaya you would notice the joy and energy that escalated after the drum finale, ang saya ko eh wala na akong iniisip kundi pagkanta! Lols.
I was so happy! After all, as I would say it.. naitawid! Iba yung happiness ko right after. I felt like I achieved something really big yesterday. You know that feeling when you have just proven yourself wrong on what you thought you cannot do?
People can say “Yun lang naman ginawa niya!” maliit na bagay man para sa iba pero for someone like me, big thing yun! You know naman.. ang kumpyansa ko sa sarili.. wait, is there even such a thing?
Anyway, mapunta naman ako sa Broadway Boys. Last Friday, while rehearsing at the studio, I had the chance to chat with these four kiddos. I’ve always seen them as shy and quiet kids, as in. So I was shocked to discover that they are all makulit, except for Francis na sobrang mahiyain. As in makulit sila, in a good way though! I had a really good time getting to know each one of them. Kanya-kanyang karakter yung apat! At mga komedyante din ha… especially Joshua Torino! Tawang-tawa lang ako kasama sila! May pa-singing lessons pa nga kami during rehearsals na nauuwi din sa tawanan. They are hilarious in their own ways. And I wish for more people to look beyond them as singers and get to know them more as interesting individuals.
To cap it all off, it was an honor to be in concert with The Broadway Boys. No shit, I am happy I got to sing with them; but I am happier I got to bond with these kids. All went well, after all. Tiwala lang talaga. Thank You, Lord.