It was a month ago..
when it all happened.
It was the first of March when Nicomainechella happened. A lot of you have been questioning me
“When are you going to post your blog about your birthday?”
“Why aren’t you writing about it yet?”
“Why did you post the Bora trip with Alden first?”
“Aren’t you happy with the surprise party?”
It’s funny how some people are tweeting me about how much they “dislike” me because I posted the Bora trip first, and not this. Enebe geysh, ete ne. I promised to write a separate entry about the two, so here it is! Narrating what happened on the 1st of March, 2016.
Tuesday. March 1st 2016.
It was a normal (Tues)day at the baranggay, doing the things that we usually do. After the show, I thought I’d be able to spend the rest of the day recharging my batteries at my place but I was wrong; there is an awarding that I need to attend to–a Coachella themed awarding. “May awarding ka pang pupuntahan after Bulaga ah.” I was prompted by Ate Pat. I can still remember how tired I was that day. I was already dragging myself to the studio (Broadway Centrum) where I had myself fixed for the awarding. “Ano ba kasing awarding yun?” I kept on asking Ate Pat, following it with “Hindi ba pwedeng ivideo ko nalang speech ko? Para makapagrest ako kahit today lang.” she kept on insisting that I had to attend and receive my best-female-endorser-kuno-award. “Ano ba talagang meron don? Kailangang kailangan ko ba talaga puntahan yun?” I asked, then she mentioned a school that I am not familiar with and said, “First time kasi magkakaroon ng awarding sa school nila, so big event. Kailangan daw nandoon ka. Binoto ka ng mga students doon.” Okay, so I really had to attend for it was a “big event”, okay.
Arriving at the Studio at 4 in the afternoon, I immediately went straight to the guest room and basked on the couch. “Idlip lang ako sandali.” I told Ate Pat. My body was craving sleep at that moment for I was physically tired from the work I did the previous week, so I took a nap for an hour. I was told that the awarding program will start at around 7, so I have to leave at 6. But it was already half past six, yet I am still at the studio getting dolled up. I kind of had a hard time in deciding what to wear because I don’t want to seem like I am really attending a legit music festival or a party, I wanted to keep it hip and chic– but decent. I chose a bodycon midi dress with an open-knit maxi cardigan paired with classic white chucks over a cropped top, high-waisted denim cutoffs and gladiator sandals. I wanted my hair to be different this time; I wanted it to go with the Coachella theme, so I had it curled pa-noodles way. I was ready at 7, Arvie (makeup artist) said that he’s going with me to the awarding, but I said he does not really have to for I can already manage to do the retouch myself, and besides I wouldn’t stay that long. He said he was advised to go with me.. oh edi sige.
We headed right away to Centris in QC. On our way to the venue, I told Ate Pat “Ang weird naman, awarding tapos Coachella-themed? Ano yon parang fair, ganon?” At that moment, I was also thinking of an inspirational speech that I could share to the students. We spent about an hour on the road, we got to Centris Elements at around 8. Ate Pat got out of the van to look for Ate Therese, also to check what was happening inside. I was at the van for 10 minutes waiting for Ate Pat’s cue.. I was observing the surroundings when I saw my brother–Dean, still in his school uniform–walked inside. I wondered why, but then I thought it could be someone else who looks just like him. There were also a few people dressed in their boho-inspired outfits roaming around outside the venue. Ate Pat along with Ate Therese, went back to me and gave me the signal to go in. “Madami ng tao. Hinihintay ka na nilang lahat.” I was feeling a little nervous the moment they said it. There’s nothing you could see from the outside for the entrance was covered with curtains. Ate Pat and Ate Therese were behind me as I walk towards the doorway; they were insisting that I should go first. “Eh, bakit ako?!” I squealed. “Ikaw na yung aawardan!” Ate Pat replied, thrusting me on the back.
I entered the venue slowly and then BAM! people began to shout. I was blinded for a minute from all the cameras flashing around me. I was literally surrounded with cameras, para akong nasa Hollywood! I smiled and waved at everyone and then a cloud of confusion popped out, “Anong nangyayari?!” “Anong meron dito, bakit nagsisigawan?!” “Bakit nagkagulo eh pumasok lang naman ako?!” not until I saw Gwen–an admin of Maine Lovers– standing few meters away from me; that is when I realized that I wasn’t attending an awarding ceremony. As you could see on the SDE video above, I looked dazed and confused upon entering, I really had no idea what was going on. Aside from all the screams and cameras, the other thing that made me so confused was the party poppers, “Teka.. awarding tapos may paconfetti?! AnUuUu tOooOh! Somebody tell me what is going on!” Gwen walked towards me and handed me a bouquet of yellow and pink carnations. Okay I get it now…
It was a surprise birthday party for me–from the people who love me. There were a lot of people in the venue and they were all greeting me a happy birthday as I walk by. I was dumbfounded, I was asking everyone “Ano to!” but I was mentally screaming inside “AH WAIT WHAT TEKA WAIT LANG AH ANO BA TO BAKIT TEKA LANG TALAGA ANO BANG TEKA NGA BIRTHDAY KO BA BAKIT MAY PARTY AY WAIT OO NGA PALA BIRTHDAY KO NA EH PERO BAKIT MAY GANITO ANO BA TO JOKE O ANO PANAGINIP BA ANO PENGENG SAMPAL MGA TWELVE AH OKAY TEKA OHH I SEE BIRTHDAY PARTY SAKIN SURPRISE GANOIN BAKIT INAANO KO BA KAYO BAKIT MAY GANON BAKIT MERONG GANON SINO NAKAKAALAM BAKIT HINDI KO ALAM BAKIT DI KO NATUNUGAN ANO BA I FEEL SO STUPID AND BETRAYED BY EVERYONE” (verbatim yan, charot)
Nakakaloka ng sobra! I was shocked beyond words! It took a while for me to fully grasp the fact that someone threw a surprise birthday party for me– not just someone, but a group of people who loves me. It wasn’t just a simple birthday party, it was grand. From the idea to the actual set up, everything was grand; the venue, invitations, flow of program, choice of food, choice of flowers, souvenirs, etc. and most especially the people in it. It was well-prepared. And I seriously could not imagine the stress these people had to endure just to make this happen.
Going through those photos made me shed some tears. I honestly had no idea they did everything from scratch, ngayon lang while scanning the photos! They could’ve just asked and hired people to do it for them or just simply buy ready made stuff from the store but they did not. All for the love; all for me. *sigh* What did I do to deserve all of this?
Going back to the program, Gwen and the admins of other FCs escorted me to the stage and asked me to take a seat and enjoy the show. The emcee for the night, Perky Christian, then went on with the program. An AVP was shown first before anything else– it was composed of birthday messages and wishes coming from my family and friends, faculty of St. Paul Bocaue, and some of Maine FCs.
So the first surprise was the party itself, second was the birthday AVP, third was..surprise dance numbers by all the present groups that evening. Aside from the party and all, it’s amazing how they were able to prepare their own dance number for me. Each group had their own distinct performance and get-up. Nakakaaliw at nakakatuwa silang lahat, sobra!
Aside from all the groups, my friends and my family also prepared a dance and song number for me. (I did not even know they were there til it’s time for them to perform; they are the fourth surprise!) They asked me to join them on stage and I had no choice so I ended up dancing and singing with them. Nakakaloka hindi ako prepared! …oh well I am always unprepared. The thing is, sometimes the greatest memories are made in the most unlikely of occasions. It was fun though and somehow embarrassing–not!
After each group’s performance, all members of their group were asked to go on stage to give their birthday greetings and messages, followed with the blowing of candles. Most of them prepared short but sweet birthday wishes while some composed concise poems for me. Also, they all had their own customized cakes made specially for me! Ang gaganda and ang dami! From small cakes to tiered fondant cakes! I wanted to devour all of it but they are so pretty I don’t even want to touch ’em. I also had this 21 mini cakes held by the people who are close to my heart (family and friends), ang bawat cake ay may kalakip na hiling.
Another surprise, Ate Lei, who traveled all the way from the States just to attend my 21st birthday party. Kainis ka manggulat.
A 21 roses dance was also done! Phen (the one who made the cocktail dress for me to wear during tamang panahon) made a ready to wear ball skirt for me! (And it’s yellow, yaaay!) Lakas maka debut, no? Starting with the traditional waltz with the men in the family, to my close friends in college, to some of the group admins and members, ending with a song number by my sisters along with my mother.
Di nya keri. Hala Nay, inaano ka ba?
Mayonnaise, an alternative rock band, were also present during the party! I was so happy when they performed one of my favorite Coldplay songs–yellow! Abby Camitan also prepared a song for me. She/we sang one of my favorite Ed Sheeran songs–Tenerife Sea. (She asked me to sing along with her but I failed miserably. I ruined the song, I’m sorry Abby and Ed.)
Lastly, the blowing of MAIN(E) candles and the time for my speech! For everyone’s information, I suck was never good at making speech.
I simply expressed my gratitude to the organizers and sponsors of the party and to everyone who came. Extended my gratitude and appreciation to the other groups and members who weren’t able to come, to the ADN, as well as the team no group, and to everyone else who have always shown their support from the beginning.
The party ended with photo op and of course..an after party. I was not able to spend the rest of the evening grooving with everyone but I still took some time to sing and revel with them. I sang a few songs (still with Mayonnaise) and I am very happy that everyone was singing along with me. I looked around and saw everybody having an electrifying time; I could tell that they were all elated that evening. It was the best night for most of us.
Until now I still could not believe that I just had an incredible birthday celebration. Never in my life have I ever imagined that someone would throw a grand party for me. I have always desired to have a birthday party as fancy and grandiose like this. It was something that I thought I’d never experience my whole life– unless I become terribly rich or a celebrity. I don’t know but for some reason I want some events in my life to be grand, considering the fact that I hate big celebrations. Perhaps it’s because I want to experience some things that I only see on television and prove that it could also happen in
reality my life.
Just a quick story.. When I celebrated my 18th debut party, it wasn’t as fancy as I wanted it to be. Honestly, it was not the kind of debut I truly wanted. I was not that satisfied with how things turned out, but during that time there was nothing I could do– I was wishing for something very impractical. Although my desired candy land theme was achieved, there was something more that I wanted. I wanted everything to be spectacular; the invitations, the food, the gown I am wearing, the venue set-up etc. I wanted everything to be epic; I wanted everything to turn out exactly the way I imagined it to be. But no, we were not able to carry out my 18th-birthday-party-desires. Still and all, I absolutely had a blast during my party. 😉
Can you imagine how lucky I am to be where I am right now? I don’t think what happened to me and my life 8 months ago commonly happens in real life– no, it doesn’t. I actually sometimes think if someone else–out of 7 billion people in this world– have experienced something magical like this. (I need to Google it!) Seriously though, what happened to me was phenomenal. Again I repeat, I am talking about what happened to me, and not me. God must be working His magic on me and I must be very lucky; not because of the fame or the money, but because aside from making my ultimate dream come true, He bestowed me with great people who will join me along my journey. It’s not everyday you meet people who’d appreciate your existence. It’s not everyday you meet people who’d proudly shout to the world how much they love and admire you.
Let me confess this to all of you, before the surprise party I honestly didn’t think that I have that much supporters. Believe me or not, the number of avid supporters I used to have in my mind was more or less than 25. (I am not kidding!) Perhaps it is because I was always–and will always be–in denial that there are actually people who admires and supports me wholeheartedly for I truly am. It is something that’s hard for me to believe.. I mean, why would people like me? When I, myself, see nothing to like about. Ewan ko.. I feel like nothing can really change the way I look at myself. I used feel like a useless piece of crap–I felt like there is nothing good I could do– and it made me feel awful at times. (That could be the reason why I am not affected by all the bashing I get, because they look at me exactly the way I look at myself.)
For the past twenty years, I’ve always been clouded with negativity. I’ve always hit life back with “No, I can’t” more than “I can and I will”. I can’t blame myself, I got used to seeing the dark side of things which made me cycnical. It’s hard for me to explain as to why I became like this for I never really experienced something terrible in my life. I think it is safe to say that it’s all about mindset and perspective. No matter how hard I try to uplift myself, I always ended up failing and sulking. And it is just now that I am slowly beginning to switch to being optimistic. I am training my mind to look at the bright side of things (though I still fail at times!) That’s the best thing I could do to keep up with this life. I’d say it’s not me who makes me feel good about myself but the people around me; the people who love me and care for me. Yes, they exist, and they are not just twenty five.
Solid Maine United, I don’t how to start thanking you all for everything you’ve done for me–prior and subsequent to the party. But let me start by just simply saying.. thank you. You guys have been there all along and I failed to notice and give you the acknowledgement you deserve. So let me take this chance to thank each one of you..
Mainenatics, Mainesters, Maine Admirers, Maine Lovers, Maineans, Maine Cuties, Maine Society, Maine Girls, Maine Buddies, Maineons, Maine Dubbarkads and all the other groups who weren’t at the party as well as the team-no-group, I thank you all with all my heart. You guys don’t know how happy you are making me and how much encouragement you are all giving me. I don’t know what I have done to deserve your all your adoration, all I know is that God blessed me with people like you. Thank you for making everything about me so special– for making me feel special. Thank you for encouraging me to uplift my spirits. Thank you for the support and concern you have shown and you are gonna give. Thank you for everything you have done and sacrificed, and most especially thank you for the love that you continuously give. I am and will forever be very grateful that once in my life I got to meet and get along with all of you. I may not say this all the time but always remember na mahal na mahal ko kayong lahat na nagmamahal sa akin, maraming maraming maraming salamat sa suporta niyong binibigay sa akin. We are all together in this rollercoaster-ride-kind-of-journey; through ups and downs, through thick and thin. No matter how hard things may seem and get, we are all in this together.
I love you all.
P.S. People have been accusing SMU for showing violent hate towards Alden Richards and/or other artists. No, those people are not really part of the group, they are claiming to be part just so people could put the blame on them–us.
Tip: Always keep in mind, just because this certain basher’s Twitter name has the initials of any group does not mean they are a member of it. Anybody could make an account and pretend to be the “biggest fan” of somebody then start saying bad things and make up bad stories about other people. Starting a fight with those kind of individuals would never be worthwhile–save your time and ignore them–never give them the attention they thirst for and the satisfaction they itch for. Save your skin from the damaging acids from the mouths of these toxic people. Some haters even claim to be a fan of who they are hating on, then they’ll go start talking sh** on social media accounts, for they know that the way they conduct themselves would reflect on their “idol’s” character. Demolition is as easy and simple as that. Do not be deceived.
“The only thing more frustrating than slanderers is those foolish enough to listen to them.”
– Criss Jami