I’ve been missing A LOT of things, events and people lately.. and I thought maybe writing about it/sharing it with you guys would somehow lessen the “longing” feeling I have for them. It happens to me all the time; it is like I remember a specific something, cast my mind back to it, long for it (up to the point where I get sad for I know that it’s all done and there is no way for me to bring them back…aside from reminiscing). I always find myself thinking about the past.. There are so many memories I keep on replaying in my head; I am so nostalgic it’s not even funny.
Seriously though, I assume everyone gets this kind of longing feeling I am talking about. Sometimes I hope to get a dream about it or something, just so I could (in some way) get the feeling I had during that particular moment. But isn’t it nice to indulge in happy and fun recollection of past events? And isn’t it also sad to know that it is now just a mere memory? Why is it even possible to be so happy and sad at the same time? Life talaga, oo.
1. Kitchen Duties
In school? Nope. (I never enjoyed cooking at school) More on the outside world. When I/we used to prepare six containers of onions, tomatoes, mushrooms, green peppers, scallions, ham and (leftover) bacon and sausage. When I used to set up the omelette and pancake station by myself because I have the earliest call time. When I used to scrub the whole hot line at noon before the second shift comes in. When I used to spend the whole day at the kitchen helping the PM shift.
2. The Breakfast Club/AM shift
John (Breakfast head chef) might not be a fun chef to work with but I did honestly like him. He made me cry, yes. (HAHAHA) But he taught me a lot of things that I didn’t learn in school– about life in the kitchen and life itself. Helena, on the other hand, loves to rant about different things and different people, but I love her anyways. (I was always sad on her days off!) Christina, Patrick (buffet attendants), Jopao, Chico and Samantha– the buffet people; I don’t think I’d survive 150 mornings without them, seriously. Binuhay nila ang katawang lupa ko.
3. 4am alarms
I have a love-hate relationship with my schedule. I used to hate getting up for work at 4/5 in the morning for several reasons:
– I am the first one to get up/go to work
– I hate getting up and seeing my friends/roommates still sleeping
– I get pretty scared all the time (while getting ready) from hearing weird noises and imagining scary stuff
– I must be tucked up in bed before midnight
– Seriously, it’s fucking four in the morning
– I get to go home at 12nn
– I have the rest of the day to myself
–“Papunta palang sila (friends), pauwi na ako” ..literally *wink*
4.Oversized chef’s jacket, checkered pants, apron, skull cap, silly hat, clogs and name plate (plus white cami and leggings underneath!)
I just miss wearing our uniform (SO MUCH), that’s all.
6. Cold weather
You don’t know the struggle of going to work on a bike on a 0-degree-celcius morning for months. I used to wear two jackets, a shirt underneath, a scarf wrapped around my neck and my mouth, gloves, and a winter hat. SOBRANG GINAW NAKAKA PUTABJSBINA. I hated it before, but now I long for it.
The amount of salary I will NEVER earn here in the Philippines.. ever.
I love shopping at Walmart. I mean, they have almost everything you need! Really wish we had Walmart (or Target) here in the Philippines. Tsugiin ang Waltermart!
9. Movie night with friends
10. College life
I miss going to school, wearing corporate attire, walking on the streets of Vito Cruz etc. Eto yung gusto kong balikan pero ayaw ko. Labo.
As you may have noticed, 9 out of 10 were all related to my Internship in the US. (still the best memory to date) I miss it all the friggin time, I swear. (Obvious naman diba?!) I want to turn back time and/or repeat everything from the start. Sobrang saya kasi, I can’t even
Pero tama nga, you never fully appreciate something until it’s gone. Kaya if I were you guys, make the most out of the present moment! Do what you can while you can. Let us carpe the f out of this diem, shall we?!