Things I miss | 01

things i miss

I’ve been missing A LOT of things, events and people lately.. and I thought maybe writing about it/sharing it with you guys would somehow lessen the “longing” feeling I have for them. It happens to me all the time; it is like I remember a specific something, cast my mind back to it, long for it (up to the point where I get sad for I know that it’s all done and there is no way for me to bring them back…aside from reminiscing). I always find myself thinking about the past.. There are so many memories I keep on replaying in my head; I am so nostalgic it’s not even funny.

Seriously though, I assume everyone gets this kind of longing feeling I am talking about. Sometimes I hope to get a dream about it or something, just so I could (in some way) get the feeling I had during that particular moment. But isn’t it nice to indulge in happy and fun recollection of past events? And isn’t it also sad to know that it is now just a mere memory? Why is it even possible to be so happy and sad at the same time? Life talaga, oo.

1. Kitchen Duties 
In school? Nope. (I never enjoyed cooking at school) More on the outside world. When I/we used to prepare six containers of onions, tomatoes, mushrooms, green peppers, scallions, ham and (leftover) bacon and sausage. When I used to set up the omelette and pancake station by myself because I have the earliest call time. When I used to scrub the whole hot line at noon before the second shift comes in. When I used to spend the whole day at the kitchen helping the PM shift.

2. The Breakfast Club/AM shift
John (Breakfast head chef) might not be a fun chef to work with but I did honestly like him. He made me cry, yes. (HAHAHA) But he taught me a lot of things that I didn’t learn in school– about life in the kitchen and life itself. Helena, on the other hand, loves to rant about different things and different people, but I love her anyways. (I was always sad on her days off!) Christina, Patrick (buffet attendants), Jopao, Chico and Samantha– the buffet people; I don’t think I’d survive 150 mornings without them, seriously. Binuhay nila ang katawang lupa ko.

3. 4am alarms
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I have a love-hate relationship with my schedule. I used to hate getting up for work at 4/5 in the morning  for several reasons:
– I am the first one to get up/go to work
– I hate getting up and seeing my friends/roommates still sleeping
– I get pretty scared all the time (while getting ready) from hearing weird noises and imagining scary stuff
– I must be tucked up in bed before midnight
– Seriously, it’s fucking four in the morning

Even so,
– I get to go home at 12nn
– I have the rest of the day to myself
“Papunta palang sila (friends), pauwi na ako” ..literally *wink*

4.Oversized chef’s jacket, checkered pants, apron, skull cap, silly hat, clogs and name plate (plus white cami and leggings underneath!) 
I just miss wearing our uniform (SO MUCH), that’s all.

5. Noon drinking sessions
Jagerpong at three (after work), f-ed up at 5, doze off until 9, then another session at 11. That’s how we (AM shift) roll.
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6. Cold weather
You don’t know the struggle of going to work on a bike on a 0-degree-celcius morning for months. I used to wear two jackets, a shirt underneath, a scarf wrapped around my neck and my mouth, gloves, and a winter hat. SOBRANG GINAW NAKAKA PUTABJSBINA. I hated it before, but now I long for it.

7. Paychecks
The amount of salary I will NEVER earn here in the Philippines.. ever.

8. Walmart
 I love shopping at Walmart. I mean, they have almost everything you need! Really wish we had Walmart (or Target) here in the Philippines. Tsugiin ang Waltermart! 

9. Movie night with friends

10. College life
I miss going to school, wearing corporate attire, walking on the streets of Vito Cruz etc. Eto yung gusto kong balikan pero ayaw ko. Labo.

As you may have noticed, 9 out of 10 were all related to my Internship in the US. (still the best memory to date) I miss it all the friggin time, I swear. (Obvious naman diba?!) I want to turn back time and/or repeat everything from the start. Sobrang saya kasi, I can’t even
Pero tama nga, you never fully appreciate something until it’s gone. Kaya if I were you guys, make the most out of the present moment! Do what you can while you can. Let us carpe the f out of this diem, shall we?!

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  2. jen says: Reply

    I like the picture above. what photo editor are you using? thanks. I also want to do that effect in my blog 🙂

  3. Marifi J says: Reply

    I love reading your blog (addictive much!), at your age you’ve done a lot that your parents will be proud of! Just keep on going! God will give you more blessings as you keep on praying and trusting Him (keep the FAITH!). BTW, i love watching you sa Juan For All,All For Juan (Kalye Serye), AlDubPaMore! (Di ko na kinaya ang pag-e-english…sheeet nosebleed!). Sa totoo lang di kita kilala nung first time kang lumabas JFAAFJ,hindi kasi ako mapananood ng mga dubsmash (but now meron na rin ako sa phone ko,dahil sa’yo,hahaha!),sabi ko sino kaya to? ang OA nya! But then tinry kong manood ng mga dubsmash videos,ganun pala talaga (but yours are unique!),walang keme, aktingan kung aktingan! Galing mo,as in! ; Just want to share.. Every night I am watching your videos (YT,FB,etc.) till midnight (time check 1:17A), na-adik na ata ko kakapanood lalo na yung Kalye Serye. Anyways,highways…Please write a blog regarding EB Dabarkads (esp. JOWAPAO) and AlDub. For now hanggang dito na muna,hehehe. Sunday tomorrow, Aldub day-off muna (hindi rin,sa YT marami. hahaha!) Hoping na mabasa mo ‘to. TIA. Ingat lagi,God bless you and your family! Always pray!

  4. Marifi J says: Reply

    iba yung time sa blog mo? hehe

  5. Eve Lyne Medina says: Reply

    Very nice blog Maine, nakarelate naman ako dito. Well, i used to work in the country side in CA. Now I’m back here in our home country sobrang miss ko din yung mga na mention mo. I’m an artist person, for me i wish we had MICHAEL’S here in Philippines, OMG sobrang complete sa arts and crafts supplies. I mean nakakalula sa daming choices. The food, the cold weather, the super markets I’ve been through, ah good memories.

    You’re right, we have to cherish and appreciate the present before it’s gone.

  6. Gim says: Reply

    i feel you. nag us din ako kaso for 3 months lang. cultural exchange.
    teka pano ba ko napunta sa website mong maganda? hahahaha
    andito ko sa work, call center ng naisip ko ang nakakatuwang si yaya dub
    nag search nakita yung website mo naintriga
    ang saya nga sa us. kung pwd lang bumalik. kaso syempre nung nag us kase tayo puro mga kabataan din yung kasama natin, kung sakali man babalik tayo dun ngaun, malamang puro matatatanda na. (pero still, gusto pa dn bumalik kahit ganon) nakakamiss nga maging independent yung lahat ng kalayaan mo nasayo bahala ka na sa buhay mo. walmart, target, publix, outlets, buffets. mga mababait na kano. hi dito hello duon. ayun nashare ko lang

    ako din my tinatagong kakulitan. pero nawala sya nag ka jowa kase ko na sobrang old fashion way back nung college ako. 2 yrs kami. nag hiwalay kami nung nag us na ko. (3rd yr ako nun) kase way back sa pinas sobrang higpit nga nya, masyado ko naenjoy kalayaan ko. tapos ngaun 3 yrs na ko graduate. nadiagnose na my depression/anxiety ako na akala ko nakuha ko sa parents ko. busy kase sila. walang time para sakin. kaya ako puro tropa. masaya sa barkada, nakakatagal ng wala sa bahay. comfort zone ang lansangan. ayoko din napapagalitan ako. pero balik tayo, ayun akala ko nga yung depression ko dahil sa tatay ko (seaman). nun pala, dahil nawala yung totoong ako. nawala nung nainlove ng sobra. sobrang mahal ko yung jowa ko nun ginawa ko lahat ng gusto nya. naging mahinahon ako. nawala yung pag ka kalog ko. yung pagiging bubbly ko. pero nababalik ko na kakainom ng prozac. :/ wala lang nashare ko lang feeling ko kase there is something in you na may mali. pessimist din ako. pero sobrang thankful ko ngaun dahil naging jowa ko sobrang optimist naman nya as in sa lahat ng bagay tlga. binigyan nya ng liwanag ang buhay ko. tapos yung mga tropa ko din na sobrang supportive. iba tlga pag puro optimist naka paligid sayo nakakahawa. ayun shinare ko na yung buhay ko. wala lang. bawat letra bawat sulat sa blog mo na binabasa ko ramdam ko, ewan ko. siguro kase been there done that? btw im 22 yrs old. eto ako ngaun, in pursuit of happiness. walang pake alam sa sasabihin ng iba. mahalaga para sakin yung sariling kaligayahan ko. yung pinag kait sakin ng tadhana nung college ako kase nag jowa ako. feeling ko ang dami kong namiss. tama ka dapat i enjoy lang. sabi nga sa cinderella have courage and be kind. -,- face your fear. kelangan maging matapang para sumaya. dami kase nating mga what if na which is masama. na di nakakabuti, na dapat hindi natin iniisip. bata pa tayo and there is more to life. eto ako, hinahanap ang tunay na ako. hinahanap yung kaligayahan ko. 🙂

  7. arnold lozano says: Reply

    Life is short make it sweet as i always say…. love reading your blogs..

  8. dang i know what you mean about those memories. i’m in my frigging 30s now and i still long for those long-ago days when life was simple, say, five years ago. harhar.

  9. Mie says: Reply

    Hi there! 🙂 Came across your blog and I must say you are really good in writing. Love your poems and I hope you continue writing on your novel 🙂 Anyway, I am really happy and proud of what’s happening in your life right now. You are very talented and thank you for making millions of pinoys happy and I am one of them 🙂 GOD Bless and take care always!

  10. Lourile Espin says: Reply

    Dearest Maine,

    I’ve come across your blog site when I googled your name. I was amazed by your personality, and even more, when I was able to read your poems and blogs. I love writing poems,too . I can relate with your blog on Happiness. Yeah, sometimes, we come at a certain point in our lives asking ourselves why we’re not happy. I am glad that you are staring to discover your true happiness. I wish you more happy thoughts. Thank you for your life, for the inspiration. May our Lord bless and keep your heart. 🙂

  11. I liked how you (AM shift) roll. That is def goals :)))) well, i hope i could carpe the f out of this diem like you did bc that’s one of the f-ing words i live by. You the f-ing blast man!

    P.S. I like your blog, it makes me feel shitty on mine lol. Well, that woke up the sense in me to finally fix mine. But yeah, kidding aside, you have a great blog (that you’re actually inspiring me to do better too). Thanks for sharing with us glimpses of you (you crazyass mofo! But hey, we cool)
    P.P.S. I HOPE YOU’RE HAPPY TODAY!!!! :)))))) :*

  12. rhedd says: Reply

    7. Paychecks
    The amount of salary I will NEVER earn here in the Philippines.. ever.

    for sure nagbago na to noh? heheheh..never say never..

  13. Lou says: Reply

    7. Paychecks
    The amount of salary I will NEVER earn here in the Philippines.. ever.

    I dont think this is true anymore…you’re blessed before but more blessed now…

  14. Maine,

    being away from home was really tough then came 04July2014 , you’re first day as Yaya DUB on Eat Bulaga’s JFA-AFJ , then it’s history . I’m sure any Pinoys wherever we are are very delightful and grateful for giving us laughter everyday on KalyeSerye kahit ilan ulit pa REPLAY we watch , NEVER kami magsasawa.. I’ve watched ” ANG TAMANG PANAHON ” so many times . THANK YOU , Maine Mendoza for being REAL and giving as always SMILE on our face. God Bless you ! Alden and cast of KALYESERYE as well as your families! Hoping to see you in NewYork one day!

  15. JAY JAy says: Reply

    Hi Maine,

    It’s funny how you said that you will never earn the paycheck you earned here in the states you will never earn in the Philippines…. What do you know? Tim is funny sometimes… I am happy with all that you have achieved.

  16. JAY JAy says: Reply

    Hi Maine,

    It’s funny how you said that you will never earn the paycheck you earned here in the states you will never earn in the Philippines…. What do you know? Time is funny sometimes… I am happy with all that you have achieved.

  17. hi Maine,

    Pls continue writing your blogs. It inspires us and gives us a glimpse of the person you are. I know, someday you would write a beautiful story of your life with Richard F. Would love to talk to you both about sa tamang panahon, and with God’s grace, I know it will happen. We love you and Alden dearly. Hope you get to the 5 year mark you have set for yourself, yet, God knows what’s best for you. Keep the faith, the love and the peace.

  18. hi Maine,

    Pls continue writing your blogs. It inspires us and gives us a glimpse of the person you are. I know, someday you would write a beautiful story of your life with Richard F. Would love to talk to you both sa tamang panahon, and with God’s grace, I know it will happen. We love you and Alden dearly. Hope you get to the 5 year mark you have set for yourself, yet, God knows what’s best for you. Keep the faith, the love and the peace.

  19. Iris says: Reply

    #7… I think this is kind of ironic. A single paycheck you used to receive, is not even close to how much you are earning now. I love how you write and how you indirectly showcase your personality through it.

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